Farewell, Chester.

There was this one time where I’m holding a pen knife against my wrist, almost cutting it off at some random place while listening to radio so I won’t die lonely in a sense.  And this song came up out of the sudden: “The cycle repeatedAs explosions broke in the skyAll that I neededWas the… Continue reading Farewell, Chester.

Grief.

I was often being added to various whatsapp groups via my one of my two besties I ever had in life. I never knew where she ever find this many groups to join and it was often bitchy. I often make it a fun way to make sarcastic remarks that will be offensive for people… Continue reading Grief.

The aftermath 

Yes I have a “mini” breakdown without anyone knowing. Yes, here comes the Miss. Aftermath of me being sick for next few days.  It set me thinking again.  Am I going to be this sickly all my life? How much more battles am I going to fight just to be fully “recover” from this irritating… Continue reading The aftermath 

Welcome July

June is gone just like this and yup, Hello July. Had been thinking lots all this while and I am really overjoyed that none of my overthinking triggered my bad mood swings like it used to be. Maybe cause too many things happened too quickly in a short period of time and it does makes… Continue reading Welcome July

The relationship advice to me

It has been two years since I last have a date. I was serious, and we almost got engaged. I bring it up, cause I do feel like I was paying more then he does. I often thought that it was due to my personality and such. This, was the first serious relationship I ever… Continue reading The relationship advice to me

Is all this worth it?

I have been thinking of this for some time and is baffled over it. Well, it has been a rocky five years to reach this point of life where mood swings are not occurring that much as it used to be. There are things that I once feel confident and well does not even helps… Continue reading Is all this worth it?